Coming up to the mid point. Tuesday the WriMo will be half over. Will I be able to do this mad stupidly simple thing?
I think so. The only part is it can take so much effort to get to writing. Once I am here, actually writing, you do the work. It is really running out of my fingers and on to the page.. I really hope it is okay. ;-)
Its like watching the worst tv show or movie. It is bad, but how bad? Most of the worst movies have some of the best productions available. Hey, every frame was in focus, the color was good, and you could hear what they said. What else do you want from a movie? (I know... a good story, but I digress.)
I've been listening to a few podcasts, one in particular is Merlin Mann's Back To Work. He puts a great point on the idea of writing. The answer is that you don't need to be reminded to do something that is fun. There are a million toys given to writers (distraction free writing environments, pens, paper, keyboards, etc) so they can write. Merlin says that the answer, that elusive thing, is to write. Just frakking write.
Write, then write some more. And when you've got that to done... Hey, guess what? Coffee? Lunch? No, just go and write some more damn words.
My journey from the words, then BACK to the words is one that is filled with starts and stops. I'm also working on two animated films (Molly and The Geek, read the Geek screenplay, will you?) I learned animation, actual film making. But that was only a way to tell a story. Stories, written down, were what I was doing. I had some nice stories written down. But I stopped with that... wish I could tell you why, but I just did.
So, now I'm back. I'm not saying that I'm ready, or I've done anything correctly. But really I'm ready to do this because I'm sick and tired of not doing it. I've been a wannabee for so long that I'm up to the plate.
I'm so sick of not making it, of not being where I want to be, of sitting on the sidelines. I want a shot. No one is going to give me that shot, I know that. I've got to make my shots, build my own future.
I know as I say the words that this is the obvious part of the program. Its like Merlin says, you have to do what you need to do. If you do it, you don't need anyone else to tell you why you need to be doing it. It should be the greatest thing in your life. It isn't, Brussels Sprouts again, but you can make it part of the story. Through doing it, doing it, and doing it again... through rote, you can do get it done. You do this because, when you do it, you get beauty from the operation.
I know that sometime in December I will have my manuscript ready to go to Amazon for distribution on the Kindle platform. I wonder if I will be able to push the button.
I think I will. Because Molly will get out. It will, as all great art does, escape. Leave the confines of my mind.
And that will be a great and terrifying day.
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